every tuesday night we'll meet up by the river
you'll call it love and I'll say that I believe ya
every tuesday night you'll fuck me under the bleachers
and I'll fill your holes too, the ones that fit your feelings

don't you dare look down now that you've jumped so high
I'm tired, you're tired, but your hand's between my thighs
I will trust you when there's no one left in this town alive
but right now I'm too drunk to care about your gun against my spine

you make me feel like I am not myself
you make me feel like you love someone else
so much, so much left unsaid but
let's just, let's just play pretend that
I could leave and you would let me
though I don't care anyway

if I want to find myself a silver lining
I'll crawl back home from work and think about us hiding, 'cause
no one needs to know what you do to me in private
and I have fun with it, I think I am an addict

don't you dare look down now that you've jumped so high
I'm tired, you're tired, but your hand's between my thighs
I will trust you when there's no one left in this town alive
but right now I'm too drunk to care about your gun against my spine

you make me feel like I'm not myself
you make me feel like you love someone else
so much, so much left unsaid but
let's just, let's just play pretend that
I could leave and you would let me
though I don't care anyway
that I could leave and you would let me
like we are that kind of play
like I'm not me and you're not angry
and I don't care anyway

don't tell me it's not nice
just say that we look great together
watch your language, what's your vice?
just look away; fuck you, whatever
don't tell me to love myself
self-care is having fun forever
I promise I'm having fun
we're having so much fun together

because you make me feel like i am not myself
you make me feel like I am someone else
so much, so much to be said but
let's just, let's just play pretend that
I'm not me and you don't mind the
mess we're making in your bed
that I could leave and you would let me
like I could leave and you would let me
like I'd know what to do without you