I am pessimistic, I can't help it so please don't make this into something big I'm not anticipating, I'm not trying to run but if you break my heart, there's one thing I want if you leave me sobbing in my bed if you leave me to the rushing in my head if we split the world in two; one half for me, and one for you all I ask is that you remember me well if I ever hurt you I'll make it right I never plan for my words to bite I want you to keep thinking I'm good don't let me be the villain; not again, not with you I mean everything I say, so believe this to be true I can't become the villain; not again, not to you so, if the ocean washes us apart if the distance proves to be too far if the best that we can do is kindly agree that it fell through all I ask is that you remember me as good never say that I did you wrong never haunt me like a song never be the reason I can't sleep in my bed never sigh about me with your friends never shake your head at the thoughts of me never be so hurt by them that you can't breathe never curse my name and pray I go to hell all I ask is that you remember me well if you leave me sobbing in my bed if you leave me to the rushing in my head if we split the world in two; one half for me, and one for you all I ask is that you remember me well

you reach and reach and how do you feel? how does infinity look to you? when you reach and reach away from it all is it worth leaving everything for the fall? you always wanted to be remembered but if you're alone then you can't leave an impact so, is it worth it to become a feather to float on the winds and land without pressure? up there with no one but yourself around no one but myself around and if I could touch the stars, my dreams wouldn't seem so far desperate as they are just want one moment to be found with no one but myself around you walk and walk and you brave the rain you know now that not everything can be saved when you walk and you walk and you reach for the past but all your memories ignore all the facts you always wanted to be remembered but if you're alone then you can't leave an impact so, is it worth it to become a feather to float on the winds and land without pressure? up there with no one but yourself around no one but myself around and if I could touch the stars, my dreams wouldn't seem so far desperate as they are just want one moment to be found with no one but myself around when lightning strikes, does the image stay? when the moon wanes, does its light remain? you always wanted to be remembered so, is it worth it to become a feather? up there with no one but yourself around no one but myself around and if I could touch the stars, my dreams wouldn't seem so far desperate as they are just one moment to be found with no one but myself around

you left a piece of yourself on me stuck in my hair like a burr you walked out just a little bit lighter while I scratch and scratch 'til it burns it woke up something, something inside me oh god if you knew how much I hate this part the fear that the one time filled up your belly and you don't care to wait and see what it starts save me, I'm on my last heartbeat one moment until I bleed out and die agony, I hate myself for falling but you made it so easy, can't I stay the night? there's nothing worse than what my mind says things both cruel and untrue (you'll never love me like I love you) like you're playing with me, just for some laughs and I want to believe that's not you (that's not you, that's not you) 'cause you woke up something, something inside me oh god if you knew how much I hate this part the fear that the one time filled up your belly and you don't care to wait and see what it starts (I care what it starts, I care way too much save me from myself again, save me with your touch) save me, I'm on my last heartbeat one moment until I bleed out and die agony, I hate myself for falling but you made it so easy, can't I stay the night? save me, I'm on my last heartbeat one moment until I bleed out and die agony, I hate myself for falling but you made it so easy, can't I stay the night?

two perfect nights and two that were not not perfect for you but I opened up broke all my habits and chose to dare hope but you chose your ceiling, so I had to go I would've let my love overflow I would've drowned myself in the undertow I'm brimming with love that I can't let go so I'll wash myself away now; I never make a show last month was rough because of you never any peace all because of you my mind ended up being right about you and I still don't hate you I just wish dreams came true all I ever wanted was to be in your mind a little piece of joy that you kept by your side I would've kept your secrets and been the best of me all I wanted was to be a priority I would've let my love overflow I would've drowned myself in the undertow I'm brimming with love that I can't let go so I'll wash myself away now; I never make a show last month was rough because of you never any peace all because of you my mind ended up being right about you and I still don't hate you I just wish dreams came true last month was rough because of you never any peace all because of you my mind ended up being right about you and I could never hate you I just wish you didn't exist

everybody needs to know that I could be better everybody needs to know I want to be good if I went out with a bang, it'd be such a pain for everyone around me, so I try to stay sane and it doesn't really work truth kinda hurts but I need to be less angry I need to be less wild I need to be palatable everybody's favorite child I need to be less sexual and so much less insane I have so many things to be I get angry every day I'm so angry every day there's a price to pay inside my head for every good thing I keep saying I'll be better, but it's a losing game everybody needs to know that I want to be loved everybody needs to know I hate who I've become and it doesn't help at all there's no stopping my fall because I need to be less angry I need to be less wild I need to be palatable everybody's favorite child I need to be less sexual and so much less insane I have so many things to be I get angry every day would anyone stop my fall would anybody want to at all I don't think anyone cares I could be more and I don't think anybody loves me anymore so, I need to be less angry I need to be less wild I need to be palatable everybody's favorite child I need to be less sexual and so much less insane I have so many things to be I get angry every day I'm so angry every day angry every day I'm so angry every day

as above, so below you'll never catch me down there alone in the darkness of my mind flesh never felt so cold and I would never reach out if there was a chance and you have no idea I'd do anything for your hand 8, 16, 24 and yet I'm always wanting more 5, 6, 7, 8 delicate chemical trickery and you say that you would kiss me but though I know you're just a tease my mind is funny like a joke so, it seems that I'm going down, down got me in my mind got me feeling so wild your gravity has me swinging 'round again crash landing with just one little smile so, is it love? who gives a shit you've got me buzzed and I love the feel of it so, if you want me I'll be waiting for your touch if you want me I don't care if it's love or not there's still so much left to be said but I know, in my soul, that you won't 'cause you can flirt with all the feelings that you read from me but your words and your looks can't give me hope (look at me) so, you gotta slow down now, take a breath now the stage is set, why don't you take a bow? in and out, out, out, out, why aren't you counting down now? 8, 16, 24 and yet I'm always wanting more 5, 6, 7, 8 delicate chemical trickery and you say that you would kiss me but though I know you're just a tease my mind is funny like a joke so, it seems that I'm going down, down got me in my mind got me feeling so wild your gravity has me swinging 'round again crash landing with just one little smile so, is it love? who gives a shit you've got me buzzed and I love the feel of it so, if you want me I'll be waiting for your touch if you want me I don't care if it's love or not

I never really thought that you were the one everything you told me made it clear enough said you wanted kids, like I wasn't one but I would've done a lot to keep your love so handsome, like a dream while you tell me to go back to sleep didn't really want to indulge my qualms but I knew that you were not the one except other men don't look as good don't talk as good as you every other man doesn't feel the same nobody compares to you, so get out of my head it's time to get out of my head what the hell am I supposed to do? where will I get my closure? how can I stop wanting you? this madness needs to be over (I really wish you were the one) I appreciate you saying that it's not my fault not unlovable just not what you want I'll take it, I have to, there's nothing I can do but I only want love from you you never felt real, like a model like someone I should never get to handle I still think about your saliva on my tongue and your chest hair underneath my palms which is why other men don't look as good don't talk as good as you every other man doesn't feel the same nobody compares to you, so get out of my head it's time to get out of my head what the hell am I supposed to do? where will I get my closure? how can I stop wanting you? this madness needs to be over (really wish you were the one really wish you were the one really, really, really wish you were the one really wish you were the one really wish you were the one but no such luck, no such luck really, really, really wish you were the one) I never really thought that you were the one knew it and I still fell headfirst into love stupid little heart, always fucking up but you listened, and that was enough